This is why we can't have nice things

today’s plans

I was planning on getting up early this morning (because I have work) so I could do my 30 minutes on the elliptical which I have been managaing to avoid this past week… but I didn’t get up quite early enough!  It seems that anymore, if I don’t have to absolutely get up (for class, or work) I cannot make myself get up.  Haha.  So I took a shower instead, which has made me feel better already.  I only have a short shift today, till 12 or 1 pm, and I got paid ($124.98), shyeah! On that note, apparently I get a tax return???? OMG.  Apparently, it’s like $79.  I am down with that.  So.  Down. 

I’m going to see the Hunger Games midnight premiere on Thursday with Laura.  I’m super excited about that.  I have WAY more faith in these movies than I did in the Twilight movies.  I’m not sure exactly why that is…?  Maybe because Twilight was marketed as pure romance, and these movies actually have a plot.  But anyway, maybe we can go to Yumo’s! Mmmm.  I just don’t really like that her cousin works there… and she’s always there…. Being waited on by people you know who are not good friends is weird.  And I’m totally jealous of Laura’s job.  Well, sort of.  Lol, I’m jealous of the pay; she makes $9 an hour, and she works like 9 hour shifts five days a week.  That’s good money!  I’m not jealous of the amount of hours that she has to put in, but it’s all part of it.  She’ll have more money than me easily in a few weeks.  If she’s good with it.

I am out of anything that I can use for foundation now.  I guess I have to bite the bullet.  I’d been using a small thing of powder concealer as fondation and it really worked nicely.  Maybe I should just get a big one of those?  We’ll see.  Actually, now that I mention it… my skin has been WAY more clear than it had been.  Not near as many of those little bumps around my chin.  Hmmm. 

But ANYWAY, today’s plan!  I’m going home after this, to deposit my check and then work out while watching BSG.  And then I think I will wash my car!  And then, depending on what Charissa and Richella are doing, I may go up to the school for a lecture.  And I think that I will do the saltwater flush today.

Oh, and before I forget, because the fact that I even COULD forget is an amazing luxury, I started my period yesterday and so far I have had no cramps to speak of.  It is amazing.  Working out and eating healthy FOREVER.

This has been a post.

things i need to do:

- change my sheets

- clean my room (not gonna happen for a while)

- go through my wardrobe (also not gonna happen for a while)

- clean my bathroom

- work out (tomorrow)

- lose 30 pounds.

so it goes

I miss the way things used to be.  And it doesn’t make me want to cry perse, it’s like I’m once removed from that feeling of wanting to cry, like I’m looking at it from behind thick glass and everything is all muffled and distant.  I am affected, but not so much as I might be. 

I miss being a child, with all the bright crisp clarity of life and optimism that goes with it.

As soon as the mercury in the thermometer creeps up just a few degrees more and the sun is shining and I don’t have class or work, I’m going to spend a good hour or two outside washing my car.  Why this feels like a panacea, I don’t know, but it does, and I’ll take it.